*_______________________.mr&mrs-shameless("v")
must you push me away?
must you push me so hard?
why do have to keep walking away; so many times, why do you walk away from me?!
why must you decide to leave...
why leave me? don't leave me alone please...
i don't take our relationship literally, no i don't.
why say you've had enough... can't bear to hear it... i really can't... no choice but to hold you back, because if i don't stop you from going you'll never come back...
*_______________________.mr&mrs-shameless("v")
8 days after me, and it's your turn to get old!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
hope you enjoyed the celebration i planned for you; having your friends around; eating beef for the first time (LOL!); your prezzies; the uber sweet mango walnut cake i baked; chocolate chip cookies i baked...
sorry for the quarrel... please don't stay angry anymore...
*_______________________.mr&mrs-shameless("v")
most beautiful, gorgeous roses i ever received in my life, ever. honest!
(so far, lah.
=X)
so the wedding bouquet has to be SPECTACULAR, SENSATIONAL, ETC ETC. OKAY! LOLLL.
it felt really great to have you come up on stage and tell me three words...
not i love you, but
'you were great'
XD
wellll, of course! i'm the only alumni performing for alumnis there! ahaha. thinking back to our first alumni nite... hehehe. so many cutesy memories and funny stuffs. and blushing on camera! gosh i can't believe i'm on video with red cheeks. hahaha. still remember my crap funny antics. and the silly way i run, when i was running to join you all in the video... lol remember? hahaha.
i actually remember that we saw two snails making love outside the dome... and next day they were still there, remember? hahaha.
anyway. it was a fab 6
th month; half-year anniversary...
=))
and you noticed i pointed to you whilst dancing on stage! ahaha, but of course, my 'because of you' is dedicated to mr-shameless.
*_______________________.mr&mrs-shameless("v")
thank you for spending my birthday with me! especially the last minute surprises even though you didn't have any time to plan for or get anything for me at all.
the coconut white chocolate, the revlon limited edition blusher (although it was the eyeliner i wanted, tee hee, but it was sweet of you to remember and get makeup for me) and just being able to be free on my actual birthday itself.
i'll celebrate yours for you too dear..! no worries
=))
love you lots... i'm old now! ahhh~
*_______________________.mr&mrs-shameless("v")
i don't know what made you say that sentence, but it was the breaking point for me...
dear, i love you so much. i just wanna be with you.
i hope you feel the same way too.
please don't treat me like that...
i can't bear it...
*_______________________.mr&mrs-shameless("v")
you're making a choice to live like this
in all of the noise i am silence
we already know how it ends tonight
i run in the dark through a firefight
and i would explode just to save your life
yeah i would explode
let me light up the sky
light it up for you
let me tell you why
i'd die for you
let me light up the sky
i can't find a wall to pin this to
they're all coming down since i've found you
i just wanna be where you are tonight
i run in the dark looking for some light
and how will we know if we just don't try
we won't ever know
let me light up the sky
light it up for you
let me tell you why
i'd die for you
let me light up the sky
light it up for you
let me make this mine
i'll ignite for you
let me light up the sky
just for you tonight
let me help you fly
'cause you won't have time
to cover your eyes
and get your disguise
they won't ask you why
they just watch you die
and it's still so hard to be who you are
so you play this part and the show goes on
and you've come this far with a broken heart
yeah you've come this far and you're broken
let me light up the sky
light it up for you
let me tell you why
i'd die for you
let me light up the sky
light it up for you
let me make this mine
i'll ignite for you
i'll ignite for you
let me light up the sky
light it up for you
let me tell you why
i'd die for you
and it's still so hard to be who you are
but you've come this far with a broken heart
yeah it's still so hard to be who you are
but you've come this far and you're broken
let me light up the sky
let me light up the sky
*_______________________.mr&mrs-shameless("v")
14JUNE2007
we began ; memories of sleeping @ jingwei's house
when you first held my hand on the mrt train
our first song ;
a lonely september
16JUNE2007
unlocking of your chastity belt
=XpXp
sleeping together at my place
10JULY2007
dance assessment
because of you =))
08AUGUST2007
stagearts' annual production
people
danz inc. performance item
beyond legends as opening
when we got over a quarrel
when we took our infamous
scandalous photo
when you stepped on my shoe & it came off onstage
14AUGUST2007
supposed to go out but took pictures at 515kpt instead
took pictures of birdbirds
took pictures of you ;
smoochie please
took pictures of me
& pictures of us kissing each other
=))
19AUGUST2007
a visit to changi airport
taking pictures like nobody's business
suntec city ; standing at the magical fountain
xinwang hongkong cafe @ marina square
vew blog entry
here
24AUGUST2007
the break up
... & your pink semen
=XpXp
25AUGUST2007
a night at dxo
my
release part ii
the last song of the night before we left :
because of you
26AUGUST2007
20th idsf lion city championships
took pictures together @ the phone booths
supper @ geylang lor9
you hugged me during sleep @ swiss'otel the stamford
28AUGUST2007
spending a lovely day together before you go for work
our sms-es for the day :
messaging at the same time ;
"it's my pleasure spending time with you too"
"big head" & "small head"
"i want to take that picture with you too" ; referring to nyp fountain
"i want to see you dance"
01SEPTEMBER2007
"you do not need to seek me to find me for i'm always in your heart"
03SEPTEMBER2007
i wish ...
11SEPTEMBER2007
finding out that i'm with child ...
12/13/14SEPTEMBER2007
my polyforum cruise & the last few days of spending time pregnant
18SEPTEMBER2007
the abortion ...
23/24/25/26/27SEPTEMBER2007
your first trip to thailand
we're so close together on this trip
=))
i just love going back to the hotel, having our own room & being able to have you hug me to sleep every night
american breakfast together
shopping together
bathing together
our private photoshoot
getting our hair done
& so many other lovely pictures of us
buying roses for me
=))
& i finally heard you tell me "i love you" in that same way again
"for me the best part of the trip was having you by my side all the time ; love you lots"
01OCTOBER2007
& we're mr & mrs-shameless once again
=DD
i love you so
thank you for giving me this one more chance to be with you ; i will treasure and cherish you so
05/06/07OCTOBER2007
danz inc. dance camp
& THE DAYS WILL GO ON ; & WE'LL REMAIN IN LOVE
took the picture of us standing in nyp fountain
your enlistment on 15october
& our messages keep each other alive everyday ... i miss you dear. i love you my baby boy.
*_______________________.mr&mrs-shameless("v")
play 'let's go jungle!' at suntec city / marina square.
dance.
skip dance practices (usually to sleep; spend time with each other).
rub noses.
do koala bear stunts.
piggyback.
play ddr.
chill at cafes.
wrestle.
hold hands.
clasp fingers.
lock arms.
hold waists.
hug.
kiss.
sleep.
make love.
poke.
grab and encircle tightly till the other is out of breath.
pinch and pull skin.
you grab my fats, i grab your abs.
pinch, slap, spank, grab, grope, caress butt.
touch, feel and claw down each other's back.
give love bites.
suck tongues.
kiss on the forehead.
kiss eyelids.
try to touch under the chin.
squeeze arms.
say i love you.
say i love you to death in mandarin.
sleep at benji's place.
sleep at my mom's place.
sleep on the floor.
bathe together.
pierce ear.
go thailand.
take photos.
meet at the mrt platform at woodlands station; first cabin towards marina bay.
*_______________________.mr&mrs-shameless("v")
mr bean soya bean products.
duck rice, chicken rice, bak chor mee, char kuay teow, you tiao rojak, cheng teng at 515 kopitiam.
macdonald's fries without salt.
honey red tea bubble tea.
pastamania.
ya kun kaya toast.
each other.
coffee&tea.
*_______________________.mr&mrs-shameless("v")
what you look like when you sleep
the stupid looking side of you when you do something dumb
the embarrassed you
the look i get when you're touched
the way you laugh when you're excited
your exaggerated actions when you are literally rolling with laughter
when you sit down and enjoy your cup of coffee
when you dance
when you perform
when you try to teach something
when you try to act funny
when you want to make people smile
*_______________________.mr&mrs-shameless("v")
your sense of humour
being adventurous
your inquisitiveness, due to your ignorance
how you enjoy simple pleasures in life
your loyalty to close friends
your trustworthiness to close friends
the hidden emotionally sensitive side of you
your care and concern towards people around you
your wanting to know what ails the people around you, and the willingness to listen and try to understand
your determination to try and change what's bad for you
your constant seeking of opinions about you, your image & your personality
your enthusiasm in making your presence fun to be around
your strong desire to excel in your passion for dance
your focus when you are serious about something
your delicateness towards the person of your special attention at that one time
your being hopelessly lost
your blur face
your cute little boy face
your bright smiley happy face
your cheeky face
your loving and caring face
you, you and just you
*_______________________.mr&mrs-shameless("v")
the past 6 years, we have maintained a special relationship of
dajie&xiaodi2
and we shall never forget it
leaving the relationship behind hurts so deeply
but it means opening a new door
for the both of us
as
mr&mrs-shameless, as a couple in love, as
one.
i will never forget, also, the night when lay in each other's arms and cried for
dajie&xiaodi2, for we know we can never go back.
and that night, no matter how wrong it may have been, we made love, under the stars, and shared the love we have kept for each other for the past 6 years of a special relationship
*_______________________.mr&mrs-shameless("v")
the song i let you hear when we first started
i remember how, that afternoon after we left jingwei's place, we were taking the mrt to school and you started to hold my hand when we were sitting down
i let you listen to the song, and you said it was so true
A LONELY SEPTEMBER by
PLAIN WHITE T'S
i'm sittin' here all by myself
just tryin' to think of something to do
tryin' to think of something, anything
just to keep me from thinking of you
but you know it's not working out
'cause you're all that's on my mind
one thought of you is all it takes
to leave the rest of the world behind
[chorus]
well i didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
and i didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
and i didn't mean to fall in love, but i did
and you didn't mean to love me back, but i know you did
i'm sittin' here tryin' to convince myself that you're not the one for me
but the more i think, the less i believe it and the more i want you here with me
you know the holidays are coming up
i don't want to spend them alone
memories of christmas time with you just kill me if i'm on my own
[chorus]
well i didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
and i didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
and i didn't mean to fall in love, but i did
and you didn't mean to love me back
i know it's not the smartest thing to do
we just can't seem to get it right
but what i wouldn't give to have one more chance tonight
one more chance tonight
i'm sittin' here tryin' to entertain myself with this old guitar
but with all my inspiration gone it's not getting me very far
i look around my room and everything i see reminds me of you
oh please, baby won't you take my hand
we've got nothing left to prove
[chorus]
well i didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
and i didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
and i didn't mean to fall in love, but i did
and you didn't mean to love me back, but i know you did
and i didn't mean to meet you then
we were just kids
and i didn't mean to give you chills
the way that i kiss
and i didn't mean to fall in love, but i did
and you didn't mean to love me back but I know you did
don't say you didn't love me back 'cause you know you did
no, you didn't mean to love me back
but you did
